27th Aug, Tue 10.57am

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15th July, Mon 5.14pm

It’s been half a year again since I updated my post. Ends up I got a lousy result last semester. SPEECHLESS

Anw nothing much has changed except the people around me. I always enjoy meeting and mixing with all the fun people and somehow they’re able to inspire me or cheer me up after a long working day. Isn’t it amazing 😀

Counting down to my holiday trip in a week time to korea, penang and gunung tahan with three different cliques of friends lol. Please give me the courage to make a change of my life.

Rolls Royce is really AMAZING!!

 

5.49pm

15th Feb, Fri 4.30pm

Trying to spare some time to write a post here after so long and I don’t even get what am I doing recently. Quite a boring life on the beginning of the year and obsessed with korea drama. Feel unsecured and helpless to study alone this semester and I really hope that I’m able to contribute something to my group project.

Too much things have yet to be done but I don’t even know where to start from. Friends should I expect anything from you all for my birthday next week?!

GIVE ME MOTIVATION.

4.46pm

30 Aug, Thurs 3.40pm

I’m here again after 3 months. Things changed and happened unexpectedly this month and it depressed me. I really can’t understand how could my father can be so cold blooded and he doesn’t look sad at all because of the death of his mother. Sometimes I really think that he is insane, mentally disorder or whatever to hurt my mother so harshly without any sign. Eversince the incident, they will be quarrelled once in awhile even just because of a small issue. WTF.

In the meanwhile of catching up my heavy workload of new semester, I’m so dumb enough to get scammed by those useless ppl. It’s not a small amount and there are a lot of suspicious issues. What I can blame now is only my stupidness and too easy to trust people. No point to spread this incident around and I haven’t even inform my parents yet when they’re in such a condition this morning. SUCKS.

Hope these useless policemen are able to find and catch these heartless and useless ppl as soon as possible?!?! The only good thing happened on August is only just the month of my bestie’s bday. We hv not known each other for that long actually but all the while she is always be there for me no matter what. Thanks for being here and I really hope that everything will be fine for both of us very soon. Happy birthday sara.

4.32pm

11th May, Fri 1.20pm

Finally I got the mood and time to write an entry here. It’s a good sign though as I used to post something here whenever I’m in a bad mood. However it’s different this time round, so far I’m glad and satisfy for what I own now.

I have survived and finished my 1st sem in NUS one week ago. The syllabus is pretty fine actually but when it comes to the exam period, it was torturing to study every day and every single minutes seriously. Torturing yet worried about the result I can get in the very 1st sem of my uni life.

Okay really really hope that at least I can get a B+ for all the modules k :p

Lazy to write more already here. Life goes on and I really can’t wait to graduate soon lol. FIRST CLASS HONOURS here I come!!!

2.20pm

17th Dec, Sat 12.41am

So I’m back again. It’s already the end of the month. Xmas and new year are coming soon too. Can’t wait for all the celebration and long holiday before I starting my school. In the meanwhile, I’m looking forward to my school also and I know I’m just contradicting. Lol.

Anw life is still awesome currently. Almost got no time to spare out even one day for last week to jog after work. Argh. I think I’m really getting fatter and fatter alr. Anw it was pretty relax and I don’t really hv much things to do at work today. TGIF and I end up watching show at home because of the rain. Zzzzzzzzz and I hv not been clubbing for 3 weeks alr I thk?!?!?!

Xh msged me again out of sudden when she don’t even bother to reply my msg few days ago because of the insurance thingy. Seriously, I really hope that she never msg me rather than disappointed me again and again. What’s the new tricks this time? She just be an insurance agent and wish that I’m supportive enough to be her first client. Ridiculous. Again, she never bother to reply me alr when I rejected her offer to be her client just now. FUNNIEST JOKE EVER.

Zzz, anw ends up I staying at home the whole night today. Life is still awesome but I hv to wake up early in the morning tml and help out my mum sia. I just wanna party and hv a long long sleep over the weekend!!!!

Btw I’m afraid of the airport technician from myanmar these few days. Regretted to add him on fb and gv him chance to hv a tea break with me sia. Then now he like act close with me and trying to concern abt me. Zzzz and another person is gary. Really thanks him for helping me but I really don’t prefer to talk to people over the phone la.

Forget it. Went out with joanne and muaji ytd. I’m great that I’m still keep in touch with them. Joanne and desmond probably are the only friends frm poly who are still close to me until now? Yes they are my true friends who will nv leave me aside for the time being and forever right!!!! Good, I don’t request much and that’s more than enough alr 🙂

I’m looking forward to my xmas celebration next week with my girl and I’m going over my manager’s house for dinner too. COOL. Nights ppl!!!!

1.23am

1st Nov, Tue 5.08pm

So it’s one month after my last entry for this blog. So much difference and I’m really satisfy for my current situation now 🙂

I hv met a bunch of nice friends, my date and good sister. Oops, most importantly, I got into NUS like finally!!! Erm so much fun recently n I’m scared of dying now. Lol just kidding. Been falling sick since 2 weeks ago especially I’m worried abt my skin. Damn irritating and itchy ><

Anw it was my 1st time celebrating halloween in costume at club. It was damn cool especially when u saw a lot of different costumes tat night. I have been hanging out with this bunch of gals and sara these few weeks. She is definitely an awesome and friendly person I have ever met. Lol knock off time, update again when I’m free.

6.01pm

29th Sept, Thurs 9.47pm

So am I doing well now? It has been more than one month since I updated my blog. It’s either I am lazy, no time or I got nothing to blog abt it. I dun wish to post abt my failure here everytime. I dun wish to entertain ppl anymore like hw I did b4. Maybe I’m just stupid or in a nicer way called innocent. Lol.

Anw many things happened in the past few months. I lost my first job in four months time, under suspicion of everyone especially my parents and bro.

Went bangkok with two of my bff and one extra fren. She is really a great fren, but I’m sorry tat it would be my last time ever traveling with her bcos of giving me all the troubles. Bought alot of clothes there and I lost my wallet and all the identities again. Stupid ever mistakes I hv made repeatedly.

Attended best buddy 21st. Honestly many troubles came to me ever since I own a bike. I got nothing to say and tat’s what friend for. Bought some alcohol for him when I was back to S’pore frm bangkok.

Oh ya, xh fetched me from the airport tat day. Sometimes I’m just insecure whenever she treating me nicely, or she went bcos of clubbing only? Went clubbing straight afterward with them. Last night in spore for Joanne, the clubber cum my bff. Lol.

Back to my buddy’s bday. Nice chalet n nice food. Nv really talk to him much tat day but I dun mind. It’s his 21st and I got him a present he wanted since long time ago 🙂

Erm currently I’m working in a construction company as project coordinator. Got the job offered one or two weeks after I came bac frm bangkok? Didn’t rest much n I knew I shouldn’t, just because of guiltiness. My colleagues and manager are funny and I enjoy the moment I working myself in the office downstairs. I can do watever I want n my manager brought me traveling ard airport n east side area by his sport car. Lol.

I’m not really happy today when I got the reply frm NUS. Again, I’m not shortlisted for the interview n they asking me to wait for the final result which ia coming out on mid/end of Oct. Hopeless n I lost my patience alr. I’m angry tat why they dun even gv me a chance to perform. I got no one to talk to except gary. Everyone is just busy with their fucking stuff including myself.

Haiz, no one will ever satisfy with their current situation n always seek for improvement. I hope I am able to do so too.

Today is a quiet night. Get killed of boredom. Bless me and sorry for everything. Is this an emo post again??? Haiz, sometimes I hope there’s an anonymous can talk to me here.

11.30pm

2nd Aug, Tue 11.05pm

It’s torturing. I have been waiting all the while since last month for the confirmation of my job and studies. End up, it proved that I’m just a failure.

Eventhough it’s not my fault at all, I just can’t reach my manager’s so-called standard. Damn it, no face at all to my friends and parents especially this is my 1st job. I’m not going to stay at there for long anw, just tat i didn’t expect that I will be leaving tat early. Damn it, I was just lying if I said I’m not upset at all to my friends and colleagues who tried to comfort me.

Fine, I just received the email frm NUS regarding to my application. I’m not shortlisted for the entrance test, wat for they still ask me to wait for their reply in late Sept see whether I’m required to attend for the interview. They are just rejected me or I’m just really exempted for the entrance test only?!?!? I’m really losing my patience alr!!!!!

I’m quite depressed the past few days when I noticed that all my frens are going to uni soon including my bro. Haiz, I can’t take the decision also even if I really get the offer of scholarship frm SP Jain. SP Jain is a private business school that only approach to me when I’m down. Surprisingly I have went through their entrance test and so-called interview alr. The interviewer is really friendly, as we are just casually talk abt myself during lunch hour.

Haiz, I’m a little bit lost now and I can only hide this feeling myself. No use at all to be depressed, wat I can do now is waiting n looking fir another job. Try not to let my friends worry abt me especially Gary. I’m really appreciated tat he has been helping me and standing my side all the while. I nv met such a great ppl b4 who is willing to spend his time helping me without any condition. Even myself, I can’t assure that I will be helping others like hw he did to me.

Again, I let my parents disspointed for not securing even just a job. Haiz, forgot almost all the events n wat I had done alr last month. I swear that this was the endless time I fell down frm my bike in spore without letting anybody knows. I really thk tat there’s such a greatful god is protecting me all the while, I should not br thking other things while riding, but appreciate I’m still alive. Anw, dun mind as this is just my random thought.

Last month, I hv spent my time with my dearest friends too. Went Xiao pei’s house to stay over for dinner n movie. It was the 1st time I stayed over my friend’s house in Msia if I’m not wrong. I’m really great tat we can get bac our friendship again since we hv graduated frm primary sch. The feeling is great to eat steamboat tgt with friend’s family, the kind of feeling is like they treat u as their family member too. We played n shared alot tat day abt everything.

I had a steamboat session with Gary and mervyn too one day after work. It was a great night to gossip abt the ppl inside the company. Lol. I hope it was not the last time to meet tgt with two of them.

Went night safari with bro, joanne n hui shan one of the Friday. It’s rare that bro was tagged along with us tat day. Experienced and walked ard night safari with them although we nv talk much to each other. Except Gary, Joanne is the one who speaks to me everyday. We emailed and shared our things every day. I really hope tat both of our life can be better n we dun hv to suffer tat much. Sigh.

Went power house with joanne koh n mayyan one night during Friday. Joanne Koh has been accompanying me also all the while while spending her summer break in Msia. We hv been crazy tgt including mayyan. Haiz, mayyan is another one I worry. Why she can’t just stop playing, but find a proper things or job to do.

Oh I just remembered tat I had a date with a guy. Lol, quite a nice guy. We met up for dinner and pool after tat. Had a gathering too with marcus and his cliques. It’s great to meet them once in a while with such cool friends who opened bottle like open water. Lol.

Anw, just had a so-called farewell lunch with zh, des and zy last Sat. No choice it’s the fate of every guy in S’pore. Miss the time to hv fun tgt with them especially des. I dun hv much time to talk to him now. Except her, he is the one I used to talk to abt everything happened in S’pore. I wondered hw is she now. We still haven got the chance to talk to until now. I was quite surprised tat she accepted my friend request again n mayyan told me tat she was actually jio me to pub someday. Unfortunate that I was alr on my way going bac msia alr tat day.

Anw,so far this is wat I can rmb now. Sorry for all the structure and grammar mistakes, but I doubt if anyone is reading my post actually. Even if u read, pls keep to urself and dun let me know. Haiz, I’m shameless.

12.36am

27th June, Mon 11.48pm

It was the 1st time ever I had Monday blues since I started working. Totally got no mood to come out S’pore from m’sia home. Yup I own two homes and I enjoy traveling back and forth to both of the countries. Nevertheless, there is always a home for me to rest and hide whenever I was hurt and tired of S’pore here. I really thanks god for giving me all the love from family especially my parents.

One more day and I have completed my probation period for three months. Unfortunately, my manager talked to me today and told me that she is going to postpone my probation period for one more month due to the reason of lack of performance. Damn it, fed up although it doesn’t affect anything when I’m still in the probation period.

Damn fed up, how can she request for my performance when she don’t even give me the chances but only asked me to do data entry during the past few months!!! Told Gary and Kristy abt this and both of them got different point of views. Haiz, both of them are corrects though obviously Gary is standing my side.

I’m really a hack care person. Eventhough it’s at workplace, I’m still prefer talking to Kristy who’re less concern abt me compared to Gary. Damn it, I know I shouldn’t be like that but seriously Gary is quite annoying sometimes when he can’t stop chatting with me on msn.

Haiz, honestly I’m quite pessimistic today. Why should I care so much when everybody especially her is just treating me as a joke. Whenever I’m with her, I hv to stay concious and control myself of not offending her or saying any wrong words. We are not the same anymore like we used to. I’m really tired and start giving up on her alr now. Thanks what you all have done for me so far and I really felt that I shouldn’t come to S’pore here and suffered all these shit.

I’m sorry but appreciate those who are nice to me. Pls forgive me if I hurt you before unpurposely. Des called me again just now. Lol, this is not the 1st time I wondered that is he still having a gf anot until now. He is actually quite annoying sometimes but still, thx for being such a great fren who stays by my side whenever I’m down.

Good night ppl. I wish the time can fast forward to
August until the day which I’m going to travel to Penang with my beloved Yong sim and Joanne. I need a rest 😦

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